I
Wednesday
August 17th, 1994
Telephoto lenses
nestled in the soft embrace of the duvet on the twin bed next to her,
their striated outlines highlighted by the glint from the clock
radio's absinthe coloured light. Implements of a spy. She shifted her
eyes to the polished gleam off the night table which housed the holy
trinity of all hotel rooms—television remote, clock radio,
telephone—and waited for her wake-up call feeling like a Sibyl
awaiting the cryptic arrival of the divine.
Boarding began at
seven in the morning. Departure, an hour and a half later. She didn't
know quite what to expect. The passage up river on a supply ship was
an unknown. A vastness of landscape no doubt. Fewer people certainly.
Dangers? Unlikely. Days of calm she hoped. Days of meditative walks.
A chance to reset her equilibrium with the world. Escape.
She turned and lay
on her back, and, for a brief moment, felt she was floating, floating
upon all the days of her past, floating upon all the incidents and
incidentals that cluttered a life and hindered self-knowledge. Days
in that busy world she'd left behind where the winds of synchronicity
seemed to shape her decisions; days when a casual hesitation on a
street corner brought about the convergence of parallel lines long
prefigured.
But not today, not on this hotel bed awake in the pre-dawn chill. She felt no
shimmering auroras of hidden truths, no premonitions of fate, only
the pale anxiety of many landfalls and departures ahead of her, where
she imagined huddles of impatient-eyed, scraggly-clothed,
emotionally-tethered souls awaited, ready to observe, evaluate, and
quietly mock her sense of escape.
In defense, she saw
herself cup her Nikon F4, or her Pentax LX, and surreptitiously
fine-tune the focus, to the left, to the right, and then, with a dry
click, freeze their moment of time and light.
*
Seven
Islands. Sept-Îles.
The name reminded him of the famed seven islands of Greece, the
Ionian Islands: Corfu, Lefkas, Ithaca . . . . He couldn't remember
the others.
He thought he could make out a few of the local ones in the grey morning mist, hovering in the far distance like the long-hulled ships at anchor waiting their turn at the loading dock.
He thought he could make out a few of the local ones in the grey morning mist, hovering in the far distance like the long-hulled ships at anchor waiting their turn at the loading dock.
Iron
ore.
He
sipped from his steaming coffee cup surprised at having remembered
this fact. A friend of his mother had told him about the iron ore
decades ago, a man who'd made a living as a private pilot for various
business executives, often American, travelling the north shore of
the St. Lawrence River. He'd lived in Seven Islands as he
called it then. He could see him now, standing in a doorway, a tower
of a man, hands in pockets, rocking on his heels, regaling them with
stories of this exotic coastal land. Supposedly a railway had been
laid into the far north, up into the Labrador hinterlands where the
mines were located. The ore travelled south by rail, and then shipped
westwards to Montreal, or abroad.
Montreal.
That's where he should be, not in this hotel dining room with a
view of the harbour. He'd probably still be in bed, dreaming of the
music score for Vivaldi's baroque concerto for two violins, 'Per eco
in lontano,' the one he'd been working on.
He
reached for a newspaper on a nearby table, a Québec city paper dated Saturday August thirteenth. He wasn't surprised to find the headlines
devoted to politics. It had only been four weeks since he'd overheard
news that the Québec premier had called an election for
mid-September. His colleagues at the Vollenhove Institute
for Baroque Studies knew he wasn't interested in politics, knew
he didn't read newspapers, knew he didn't listen to the radio or have
a television, but the aural and visual noise of it was difficult to
escape. Placards and signs had proliferated like musical notes of an
avant garde and dissonant composition. Graffiti scrawls of “OUI”
or “NON” appeared like bruises on the facades of fine older
buildings, and the incomprehensible political chatter in his
favourite coffee house seemed intent on intruding upon his
consciousness, intent on unravelling his sensibilities like a loose
thread pulled from one of his scarves.
He
turned the pages passing over political contentions, homicides,
accidents, and blood sports to arrive at the weather predictions for
the week. Nothing was specified for where he was headed. From
Sept-Îles
to Blanc-Sablon seemed a wilderness of no concern.
*
She
finished off her banana and yoghurt and stared through the hotel
window remembering the last words of her father, a literary quotation
he must have anticipated using for years: Non
seulement nous regardons les choses par d'autre côtés,
mais avec d'autre yeux; nous n'avon garde de les trouver pareilles.
She
didn't tell her mother he'd spoken those words. Instead, she'd
fabricated a moment of drama for her: a clutching of the daughter's
arm, her mother's name on his dying lips.
Literature
had been divisive. Best to provide this dry salve to their long
broken marriage. Sweeten the end. She realized it may have
transferred a touch of guilt upon her mother's conscience, but she
considered it a healing touch.
It
wasn't until she dealt with his estate did she come across the
literary source. He'd left a supple leather bound copy of Pascal's
Pensées upon his desk, the silk ribbon bookmark lining the
gutter like a red incision: Book two, number 124.
It was
if he knew he was going to die.
As to
the author, she'd been mildly surprised. She'd anticipated a modern
philosopher or writer, someone like Sartre or Camus, Beckett even.
Why Pascal? And what was the meaning behind the words that we not
only see things from different sides, but with different eyes too, we
don't want to find them alike? And what did her father intend to
convey? Words and literature were not her domain. She'd made it
through the narrow divide of poet, playwright-father, and
actress-mother to emerge from the familial shadows with an interest
in frozen moments, captured visuals. Words had always been elusive,
slippery, unreliable.
She
dropped the small yoghurt cup into the waste basket and wondered if
she'd be given the same room on her return in six days time. Hovering
over the phone, she picked up the Hotel Mingan message pad.
Six days. Not even a week. Wednesday to Monday. She would leave her
car in the hotel parking lot. Safer she thought. And further away
from the salty air of the port. She tossed the note pad on the bed
beside her packed bags.
She
should arrange for a taxi to take her down to the port. Best to
arrive early and overcome anxieties of uncertainty.
The bearded taxi
driver with his Greek fisherman's cap was curious. Was she going to visit relatives? Which
community? No. She
was a photographer. Tourist. There and back. Sightseeing. He
nodded his head and then gave her a look in the rear view mirror as
if she was to be pitied. A single woman in her late twenties on a
supply ship to distant communities seemed a waste of life's precious
energy and time.
They
drove in silence past generic 1970s bungalows with their generic
landscape offerings of dwarf evergreens huddled in generic
formations. But for the election placards, it could have been any
street in any town, any province. They turned left on avenue Arnaud
towards the port and she caught a glimpse of tugboats in the distance
and could smell the tang of the water.
Ahead of
them she noticed a young man striding towards the pier, his long
brown hair tied back in a ponytail with a dark ribbon. He was
carrying two pieces of luggage, pale green cloth with brown leather
straps and handles. As they passed him she looked back and noticed he
was wearing what appeared to be a waistcoat. A watch chain glimmered
like an inverted rainbow at his waist.
© Ralph Mackay 2018
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