Jerome
looked up from the canvas—from the delicate complexion of Lucrezia
captured in paint—feeling uncertain as to the meaning of her
question. He stared at her, his lips parted as if his private
language had been wrested from him and made audible by a form of
magic. Did he have anything to tell her? The question was like a net
thrown wide to encompass a diversity of answers. It could hint at
many possibilities he thought.
There
was a knock at the door.
Thaddeus
entered and made his way over to Lucrezia, who, with her back to the
door, turned her neck to look over her shoulder, a pose that reminded
Jerome of that exquisite bust of Clytie by G. F. Watts he'd seen in
London years ago; Clytie, the water nymph transformed into a flower
ever turning her head towards the sun, but in this case, away from
the window towards the shadows behind her and to
Thaddeus who whispered into her right ear. Jerome felt a touch of
envy. The faintest watercolour wash of jealousy. She nodded her head
and Thaddeus made his way to the door without a look towards Jerome.
“Excuse
me Jerome, I must leave for a few minutes. Have a
drink or a sandwich in the fridge.”
He
nodded his head, closing his eyes with understanding. He couldn't
help but follow her fine figure as she made her way out.
Saved
by the knock. Or not. If she didn't know of his entering the
Dark Room already, then perhaps Thaddeus was providing the message at
this moment. Why did he have to succumb to curiosity? He was brought
up to respect other people's property and privacy. Was it this very house communicating to him on an unknown level, leading him out of his room in order to come across Lucrezia closing the door to the hidden Dark
Room? The timing of it all made him feel like a detective pulled
towards a clue. He felt like he was falling into one of Pavor's suspense novels. And why their mysterious reluctance to fully reveal
themselves to him? Was it merely a desire to retain their country living
undisturbed by the likes of him?
It was perhaps the way her question had surprised him like flashing lights in the review mirror. What
did he have to tell her?
A
folding pentaptych painting took form in his mind. The left exterior
door panel concerned his painter's progress, and revealed him
painting Lucrezia in this very room; the other side provided a
representation of his being shown the private office of Declan with
the Rossetti Proserpine.
On opening the hinged doors an interior triptych was revealed, the
left hand image, his exploration of the maze, and the right hand
side, his discovery of the Dark Room, while the large middle panel, a
triangulated passion of amber, ochre, burnt sienna, vermilion, coral pink, his dream of making love with Lucrezia. The
hidden triptych of his guilt.
With a
fresh brush, he began to mix a bit of ultra blue with a touch of
viridian and tested it on the bottom of his study thinking he might
just paint such a pentaptych. He could ask his friend and frame
maker, Ghanesh, a fine woodworking specialist, to create one to his
specifications. He could see it already: gilt oak with rosettes and a
thin outer black fluted frame striped in gold, like the one framing
Rossetti's painting Monna Vanna he'd seen at the Tate.
What did
she want to hear? What was she referring to? He could tell her about
meeting Harrington, and the story of the laugh, the copy, or echo of
a brother's laugh bringing them together after so many years apart.
An enchanting story. Or he could tell her of being shown her
husband's private office and Rossetti's Prosperpine.
Jerome
heard the door open and he stood up as Lucrezia approached, her hips
swaying ever so slightly in her low heels. She smiled and sat down.
“Sorry for the interruption. So, where were we?”
She didn't appear to show signs of being upset. Her manner hadn't changed. “You had asked me a question. What do I have to tell you? Well, I met Harrington at
breakfast. Very nice man.” Jerome looked at Lucrezia's lips. “Your
husband recounted the story of the laugh.”
She
didn't move, but merely nodded. “Ah, yes, the laughter across the
room. It's one of my husband's favourite stories.”
“It's
certainly a . . . an enchanting story.”
“Harry's
such a gentle man. So talented. His laugh is unforgettable.
So, did you sleep well?”
Jerome
felt unbalanced, as if he were walking in deep sand. His initial
assumptions of Lucrezia being a mere trophy wife had been washed away
revealing a shape shifting form of uncertainty. Was she a scholar of
forgotten esoteric lore? Was she trying to follow up on something
Catherine Fenton, the designer of the maze, had written? A manual for
the proper use of the maze and the obsidian mirror to attain . . .
to attain what he couldn't possibly fathom. He hesitated with
his brush over the colour palette. “I did have a strange dream,”
he said, looking at her for any visible signs of complicity. “I was
in a room with you . . . and your husband, and a number of my
friends. Bartholomew and Thaddeus were there too, playing billiards
on a round table.” He had forgotten about this light dream. Another possible panel for his imagined painting.
“Really?
That's very interesting,” she said. “Beneath your bedroom
in the corner tower, there's a billiards room.”
“Is
there a painting of me on the wall by any chance?”
She
laughed. “There is a painting but I don't think it's you.
Anything else?”
He offered her the right hand side of his imagined pentaptypch. “Declan
showed me his private office and the exquisite Proserpine by
Rossetti. The colours are so rich.” He looked once more at her
lips mixing nameless and numberless tints in his head. "I think I could stare at the painting for hours if it was mine."
“Hmm,
yes, a beautiful painting. Perhaps I should be jealous. Of my husband being alone with such a beautiful woman."
He plied
his brush on the background of the canvas cleaning it of excess. “I'm
afraid I took advantage of your maze this morning and lost myself
within it.” He opened up his imagined painting voluntarily in an effort to slow her approach to the subject of the Dark Room. Running scared. “I'm sorry if I overstepped your courtesy.” He noticed she crossed her legs and sat further up in
the chair.
“Did
you . . . come upon the centre?” She was lightly bouncing her
left leg over her right knee, her voice relaxed, unconcerned.
“Yes.
I . . . arrived at the sundial.” Jerome lifted his thumb up in a
hackneyed manner of measurement, his thumb joint being the distance
from her top lip to her chin. “I rested on one of the stone
benches and wrote down many
of the stone inscriptions in my note book. It was a moment of peaceful, calm stillness. Until Beaumont arrived that is.”
“Beaumont?”
She smiled. “He knows the maze well. Eyes and nose close to the
ground make all the difference.”
“Perhaps
I should get down on my hands and knees next time.”
“Like
a pilgrim. Yes, it might work.” She coughed and reached for a
crystal tumbler of water on a table beside her. “I remember an
occasion visiting St. Joseph's Oratory, and as I climbed the many
stairs I came across a man on his knees making his way to the top. A
prayer at every step, hand making the cross.” She paused looking
down at her delicate knee enveloped in tan suede, and ran a hand over
it, smoothing out the nap. “I talked to him an hour later on my
way down. Such belief in our age of science and technology is as rare
as the disease the man's daughter was suffering from. He was praying for a
cure.” She paused tilting her head back. “It's interesting how
the words cures and curse are but a letter away.”
“Hmm,
yes,” Jerome said softly, almost to himself, sensing she was casting off a thin veil of self-knowledge for him to catch, and he breathed in the aromatic resins of her spiritual interests like a devotee. A small revelation, a parsimonious gift.
“In
comparison to the man, I felt like a gawking tourist," she said. "Gazing at the
reliquary holding Brother Andre's heart, staring at the display of
canes, crutches and walking sticks, impressed by the aesthetic beauty
within.”
Jerome
swept a dash of cadmium yellow and worked a touch of raw sienna into
it. “I painted a number of copies for a client who lived up behind
the Oratory. My client could look out his window and see the dome. I
think it was just a few steps down to an entrance. The easy way in.”
She
thought of saying that the easy way in was never rewarding but held
the words back. Had she not taken the easy way in by marrying Declan?
She looked out the window behind Jerome, catching glimpses of pale
blue sky and the sun. “So, what copies were they?”
Jerome
rested his brush and looked at her with a half smile. “Although I'm
not very good with a painting knife, they were copies of works by Paul-Emile Borduas. His black and white series. People walking by my
client's house could see the paintings on the living room wall and be
impressed. Vanity I guess. Part of the decor. I've also copied a few
triptychs of Francis Bacon. Originality is difficult. Copying is . .
. well . . . it's technique.”
“We
have a Francis Bacon in one of our residences. Horrid thing. Upsets
me every time I enter the room. Do you sign them with the original
artist's signature?”
“No,
never. I always do variations instead of exact copies. Slight
differences in subject, perspective, but colour much the same
palette. I use the name of Lacier Pinto for such paintings.”
“Lacier
Pinto?”
“Derived
from the letters in the word 'replication.' I like it. It seems apt.
Pinto refers to painting in Spanish.”
“Ah .
. . yes, very clever. I'll have to keep my eye out for any Lacier
Pinto paintings on the market”
He
laughed. “Probably not worth much.”
“Well,
you're like a . . . magician with paint aren't you. Old masters to
modern abstract. I wasn't aware you had such a breadth of . . .
talent.”
They
exchanged eye contact and he tried to smile as he felt his cheeks
blush. A silence descended upon them, an awkward silence. He felt
certain she had discovered his breach of privacy. The Dark Room, he
felt, was now creating a distance between them.
“Painters
are formed by their society to a great degree,” he said, trying to
shift the conversation to drier, less emotional ground. “Francis
Bacon never studied art. He did it by the seat of his pants as
one of my teachers was fond of saying. A very odd duck. An outsider
who used everyday images to capture a moment, often a twisted moment,
and what he produced was disturbing. He even began painting on the
unprepared side of the canvas, the wrong side, the one you see before
you, the back if you will.What he produced was a reflection of the dark
century he lived in, acceptable reflections of
true reality whatever that is. I'm sorry, I feel like one of my old
professors.”
“No,
no, continue. I'm all ears,” she said smiling at him.
“When
I was a student, I wrote a long art history paper on the paintings of
the Victorian George Frederick Watts. A quintessential Victorian in
many ways. When young, he went to Europe and to Asia minor to study
and paint, and he produced some pleasant landscapes and I remember
thinking he should have pursued a career as a landscape painter.
Anyway, when he returned to London in the 1840s, he was overwhelmed
by the poverty and suffering and he produced a number of realist
paintings depicting what he saw, Found Drowned, Under a Dry
Arch, Irish Famine, Poverty. It was a Dickens world, but
whereas Dickens could write about it and move his readers to
compassion and understanding, his illustrators still provided
sentimental images to accompany the text. For Watts however, no one
wanted to look at paintings of a drowned prostitute, or near
skeletal homeless people huddling under a bridge to keep dry. No one
would want them on their walls. No gallery would show them. It was my
thesis that the Victorian society forced him towards his use of
symbolism and allegory and made him a lesser painter for it. At least in our eyes today.”
Jerome put his palette and brushes down, got up and stretched.
“Francis Bacon lived during a time when there weren't restraints on
the acceptable. People called his paintings ugly and horrifying but
he didn't care. He didn't have to fit in like Watts had to conform.”
Jerome began to walk about the room, articulating his words with hand
gestures. “Watts wanted to fit in, find his way into the upper
ranks, so he worked on his grand allegories while also being a
prolific portrait artist. All the usual bearded and moustachioed
suspects, the stern-eyed stuffed shirts as well as his fellow artists
and writers. Tastes and perceptions change though. What many
Victorian's thought of as plain we find very appealing. Watts's early
double portrait of Long Mary is today very appealing and
modern. His portrait of Rachel Gurney, is to my tastes, one of
his best portraits, although I do like his Pre-Raphaelite inspired
portrait of Jane Senior. Rich, rich colouration. But symbolism. Much of his work
along those lines doesn't stand up very well. The exception being his
Minotaur which hangs in the Tate. In my paper, with reference to his Minotaur, I made
parallels to the work of Francis Bacon. The monster is depicted from
behind showing its heavily muscled torso and its massive fist crushing a
small bird, a symbol of purity. It made me think of some of the works
of Francis Bacon. The almost abstract muscularity of the terrible
beast with its vacuous gaze and open mouth, I perceived as resonant
with some of the work of Bacon, specifically his Painting 1946.
The grim, bleak violence of it. My professor didn't quite see the
connection but I remember receiving a very good mark.”
“I
think I've seen the painting you're talking about on a book cover.
What's it symbolic of?”
“Yes,
it would make a good book cover. The Minotaur is leaning over the
parapet of the labyrinth looking out to sea for the ship bringing him
his human sacrifices. It symbolized the horrific fact of prostitution
on the streets of London at the time, and was his way of expressing
his outrage and despair, and a way for Victorians to get the message
without being . . . mortified. I think he painted it around the
mid-1880s, but only gave it to the Nation ten years later or so. I
don't think many Victorians got the message. If you visit the Tate
Gallery, you must see it.”
“If it
reminds you of Francis Bacon, perhaps not.”
Jerome
stood before the window looking out towards the autumn colours
feeling like he had escaped the harbour of his subterfuge and was
slowly floating out to sea. She joined him. Her arms
were folded and her left shoulder touched his right arm and he let
the sedative seduction of her lavender fragrance overwhelm him. He
imagined himself turning to her and kissing her lips with their
numberless and nameless tints.
“Has
society formed you?” she asked.
His
fantasy faded like a sigh. “No doubt, no doubt.” The broad
complexity of her question felt like an anchor dragging the dark cold
depths for a hold. “I've never thought deeply about what I've
become. Too much self-knowledge might hinder my creativity.”
“I
thought you were all technique.”
Feeling
he was being lightly mocked, his self-respect was roused. “I do
have my own paintings. I'm not just a copyist.” He turned around
and sat upon the wide window sill, arms crossed. “You must visit my studio. I can show you my
portfolio.”
She put
her hand on his shoulder. “I'd like that. Come. We'll go find my
busy husband. He mentioned he wanted to show you one of his old cars.
Something you two have in common it seems.”
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